Some days I think I'm Murphy. I'm actually doing well and staying on course, then I am the one who goes and fucks things up. I don't even have to wait for something bad to happen, I just do it myself. I may have extra money burning a hole in my pocket or something and before I know it, I made a bad choice and blew more money than I should.
Gosh, I've been working at this for so many months now, you'd think I'd be smarter and make the best decisions for our current situation, but for whatever stupid reason I don't. It really gets me down.
I don't have any real excuses and I know I'm smarter than my behavior would let on. I guess it's a journey and it's just going to take time.
When I take a moment to step back and think of the big picture, I know that I am improving. It's just not as fast as I'd hope it would be. Who knew that the road would be so bumpy and it would be so hard to hang on to the damn wagon? Oh well.
Have a great weekend all and Happy 4th of July!
PS - As an update, the hubby didn't get that job from last week. We'll keep searching though! Thanks for all the well wishes.